kadang2 kita kena jugak berangan...

Kata orang, seronok kalau kerja boleh jalan2 ni...tak la terperap kat opis je. Itu kata orang. Kata orang yang kerja dia kena duduk atas kerusi sambil ketip2 keyboard. Maybe i'd say the the same thing if i were in their shoes. Well, actually, i do hope i am in their shoes.


I envy everyone who is lucky enough not to have to work outdoor. Not that i hate outdoor things; i ni bukan la lembik sangat rasanya. But, i've been working under the hot sun for years. Dari zaman belajar, sampai i dah kerja almost 14 years; asyikkk la kena berjemur. Bukan la i ni mengada2 takut hitam ke apa; dah memang gelap pun; masalahnya i think i've had enough. Itu je. Is it so hard for people to understand that? Can't they imagine how restless i can be because of the heat? I'm not young anymore, and i know my body is not capable to tolerate the weather as much as i can when i was younger. I don't think they can imagine how uncomfortable i can be when the heat is trapped inside me, how my face feels burning all the time. Sangat2 tak selesa tauuuu!!!


I've been thinking a lot lately...agaknya sebab sekarang ni jiwa tengah kusut sebab ada fieltrip tak lama lagi kot. I think i should stop doing things that i don't like. I think i should focus on things yang boleh buat hidup ni lebih meaningful, something different. Macam kahwin??? ...hahaha...habis la, PK mesti tengah kata i gila tu. Seriously, if money is not an issue, and hiring a pet sitter is not a problem at all...then i think i'll spend most of my time traveling. Kan PK kan...we would've gone to Landen this week and NiuZilen next week, and off to some weird sounding country somewhere in the middle of the Mediterranean Sea the other week. Gila best gitu kan... i tau me_cnor mesti tengah sengih imagine2 ni kan? But then again; i don't think there's anyone i can trust enough to leave the FCs with, except for PK and my siblings. Itu pun, kalau boleh i want them to stay at my place so that they won't miss anything & the FCs doesn't feel abandoned. Sangat cerewet kannn??? Takpe...takpe... i'll work that out when the time comes...wahahahahaaaa


Seriously, i know i have lots of leaves to be finished by end of the year. Except for the few days plan nak berpoya2 hujung tahun ni; yang lain i langsung tak tau nak buat apa. Nak ambik cuti raya panjang2 pun buat apa? Makcik2 kat KL ni the first day raya dah abis dah. Itupun dah campur setengah hari terbongkang depan tv tengok drama2 raya. What else can i do? Adakah i patut ambik cuti & pergi kursus2 motivasi? Shall i go to baking classes and hope that one day i can earn my living memukul telur instead of menukul batu? Or, should i just wait until end of year, take leave, and just stay at home...as usual? Most likely that's the best option. But meanwhile, i should think of something different than the usual routine wake up-eat-'tescoing'/'gianting' etc. Maybe i should get back to my old hobby; that pencil and drawing paper thing? But first; i should put a reminder to myself to make my house as comfortable as i could so that i won't find any excuse to spend my time outside. Err...PK, cancel the spa thingy, i think i'd like a new house for my birthday present next year, bleh?