I tend to have reverse first impression about people. If my first perception is good; that person usually turns up to be someone i can't deal with...and vise versa. It happened many times and i keep myself very cautious with my own presumptions. But lately, it doesn't work that way anymore. I might adore a person the first time i set my eyes, and that feeling stays the same...and vise versa jugak!
I have been straining myself from complaining about people. Tipu la tu kan. Yes, i do complaint about almost anything that doesn't please my eyes. Orang, kerja...anything. But, i try to be fair. Give them few more chances...ye la, i might have wrong perceptions jugak kan. Kalau tak suka sangat, try to ignore, avoid eye contact, avoid lengthy conversations, avoid thinking...avoid everything la. But then again; bak kata seorang kawan...'saya hanyalah insan kamil yang mudah terkhilaf'. Though the effort is there, kadang tu it is unavoidable to have that sour feeling here and there.
I strongly believe that there's always a limit to every relationship. A student will always be a student no matter how close you are to your teacher. A wife will always be a wife to her husband. There's no way you can pass that border. Same goes with a junior - senior relationship. No matter how friendly, baik hati, helpful and whatever good deeds you can imagine a person can be; in the end, there's always that faint line that separates the connection. I believe that is what we call 'respect'. And respect will guide you in finding the right time or rather the right way to approach the other party. You can't just suka2 buat lawak bodoh tak kira masa. Kena la tengok orang tengah sibuk ke, mood baik ke tak. I trust that every human being is gifted with a sense which enable us to detect other people's mood. Though the sensitivity may differ from one another, i still believe that we, human should've been more sensitive than any other god's creatures. Even my FCs are sensitive to my emotions.
Something is bothering me in the office. To my friends who are reading this (kalau ada); you are not the person i'm describing, sila jangan terasa. I'll just list down whatever is annoying me, kalau rajin you all figure out yourselves la sapa dia.
1. Do not stare at my screen. If you can read whatever i'm googling, either you are standing too close, or you must be staring at my screen. And tak payah nak bagi ulasan on whatever i'm looking at.
2. Don't bother to keep track of whatever i'm wearing, my dress colour etc. Those doesn't have any connection with my mood. You don't have the privilege to approve or disapprove.
3. Don't give me any comment on how early or late i come to office. You don't have the right to do so. Just because sepanjang masa u ada i datang lambat doesn't mean that i tak pernah datang ofis awal. Besides, baru berapa bulan je u ada sini kan.
4. Don't ask me where i'm going. I don't need your permission to go back early or late. Ingat la, masa i dah pandai pakai lipstick, you masih lagi dalam pampers.
Haishhh...see. kalau i dah start memang banyak nak komplen. Cukup la kot kan ;p
