I should've updated this lonnnggg time ago. But the frustration of the situation keeps holding me back. Alasan!
One morning, just days after AJ's death, I got a letter from my neighbors. It was inserted to my car wiper. Whoever wrote the letter told me not to feed the stray cats at the parking space anymore. They/he/she said that the food had attracted not only cats but ants, squirrels and birds. And, not only those tiny animals; they fear that it'll also attract snake. They said that the cats are leaving their poops outside their doors. The same night, an indonesian maid of one of my neighbors knocked my door and started crying telling me that she is not allowed to feed the cats anymore. She's been feeding the cats with leftover foods. I was hurt from the letter i got that morning, and now i have to comfort her uncontrollably sobbing. She left after few minutes. I promised to always put some cats' food in my letter box so that she could just grab and give it to cats whenever she could. Just after she left, one of the security guard came and hand me a memo which i had to sign and return a copy. It was really too much for me to handle in a day. I cried hysterically.
Somehow whatever happened that day had changed me. It had altered not only my daily routine; but it had caused a negative shift of my view towards those people. I am in constant fear all the time.
1. Everyday I woke up just before 5 am and tip toed downstairs to find the cats. I was informed by the maid that the guard's routine walk is at 5; so to avoid them, now i wake up at 4am. I'd look down to make sure that the area is clear before i start my mission. The cats now know the routine, so they'll be alert when they hear my footsteps. Sometimes i had to turn my way around when suddenly a car passes by; or the indian car washer is around. I had to climb up the stairs and wait for a while before going down again.
2. It was really painful at first to ignore the cats when they came running to car whenever i came back. I had to turn my face away and started walking as fast as i could so that no one can see me with the cats. Now, they are starting to understand. They won't come near the car when i started the engine in the morning. Perhaps they are already full by the 4am food. Lately, the schedule changed. They keep running to car again!
3. I'd turn off the aircond and radio before i reach my parking in order to avoid the noise. I hope the cats wouldn't notice the sound of my car approaching the parking. I'd make sure that i reach house when it's already dark. As my car approaches the place, i'd make sure which house has the lights turned on so that there's no head popping out out the windows. Ye...bunyi macam pompuan psycho kan.
4. I always have something in the car to pretend that i have to walk to the rumah sampah or basically a place where we dump all our rubbish. At the back of the tong sampah is where i feed the cats. I came back one day and saw the maintenance guy at the place. I pretended to walk upstairs, ignoring the cats. When i looked down to the place from my room, i saw something protruding from the bumbung of the place. I still haven't figured out if it's a cctv or a downlight. But, i try to avoid walking underneath it; just in case. I do not want them to caught me if it's a cctv. Anyway, PK confirmed that it's not. And i don't feed them over there anymore. There's a new place introduced by the maid.
5. I hate my neighbours more than ever. They are all "Cha" - so secara tak langsung; they've turned me into a racist. Lantak la. I even cursed that they'll all burn in neraka forever, hope that they'll all soon die of heart attack, ada ular datang patuk and all kind of weird things. Indirectly jugak; it had caused me to think very carefully who to vote in the GE. Masalahnya all the candidates are either Cha or In. Well, dah menang dah pun.
It's not a very comforting situation. I hate the whole situation. Sentiasa kena berjaga2 - i have no freedom. It's my money that i use to feed the cats; not theirs. These FCs issue has been bothering me for months now. Now with my brother not in KL i have another problem to take care of; i have no one to leave my FCs to. Meaning no more holidaying for me. Sangat tak suka okay...!
