It's my habit of checking my laptop screen for emails before i start with anything else. I did the same today; without even sitting and putting down my bag. So, i have 3 mails in my Thunderbird - this one is especially for office's correspondences. 2 from the COO and 1 from MatBlurr. My personal mails - yahoo especially, holds easily more than 20mails per day - mostly from the shopping2 thingy; which i would easily click and erase without even looking at them.
~ the COO mail :
1st email says : I did asked you what are the changes made by xxx 2 weeks ago did’nt I.
2nd email says : I have reviewed the revised xx and it find that the amendment is acceptable to us. Please make two prints and get xxx to sign.
It happened about 2 weeks ago. Our client had sent an agreement - a revised agreement actually, because we've signed the earlier one and they gave a revised version after few days saying that they've realised some mistake on their part. The revised version was supposed to be signed and returned to them during a meeting about 11 days ago. Okay, my mistake was, i emailed the agreement to my head, assuming that he is the right person to go through the document. I was told later that i should send the agreement to our COO - where he'll thoroughly scan the document & later get the CEO to sign. So i did. I emailed the COO 2 days after i received the agreement from the client - on the 8th of Nov; which was supposed to be the day of the meeting. I appologised to the client, knowing that it was a mistake on my part.
Last friday (16th Nov), there was still no sign that the COO has look at the document. I went to his room to gently remind him about the agreement. He asked me what changes has the client made & wanted me to print it out and discuss it with him. I told him that whatever changes they've made can be seen at the document itself - they have not 'accept'ed all the changes they've made, so anything they did can easily be traced by reading the document. I left his office after that conversation for a friday 'spiritual enhancement class'. I was a bit angin, his job is to go through the document, not to sign it anyway. If i were to sit and discuss the agreement with him - i might as well do it myself. I don't need him in the picture anymore. Unless, he's the one signing the document, yes - i'll sit down and go through the agreement for him. I don't understand reading legal text anyway, so if i were to go through the document - i'm gonna need a gugel translator next to me.
Yesterday (19th Nov), i sent an email to the COO, reminding him that the agreement was supposed to be returned to the client 10 days ago. Well, i might not use a sopan2 word, but i know i wasn't rude or used harsh words. It was just a reminder for him to read the document. I guess he must've been very annoyed with my constant bugging; hence the 1st email was written in such manner. But, '2 weeks ago'?? I think he must've lost his sense of time and space!
The 1st email was only sent to me alone. The 2nd one was sent 7 minutes later, cced to my head and CEO. Hmmm...i wonder, it takes only 7 minutes to go through the documents? And you took dayyssss to do it? So, i la yang nampak salah sebab tak discuss dengan dia sekarang? Because of me la benda tu lambat ye...? ish..ish...ishhh...
~ MatBlurr's mail :
MatBlurr is now in Bintulu. He'll be stucked there until early next year for a project. Since the team went there few weeks ago, i'll be receiving mails from them everyday. The project manager will email their progress to me so that i'll know what's happening & report their progress to the client. Since the PM is now in back in KL for a while, MatBlurr took the role & email to me, or rather the whole team to report their progress.
I have problem - not only now, but i always have problem reading his mails. I won't get the info straight away. I always have to read his email more than twice to really understand what he's trying to say. I'm not saying that he has problem with his language. I'm not a good writer anyway; but i'd prefer a straight forward email. Just state whatever the main points are - forget the bombastic words or the lengthy sentences; it'll make me loose my focus. By the time i finish reading the sentence, i have already forgotten whatever was written earlier. Mana lagi nak faham ayat, nak grab info pun tak dapat. I surrendered - forget the mail, and go on with my work.
I spoke to the PM later and he asked if i got any email from Bintulu. Yes, i said; but i have problem understanding it. And he laughed at my statement.
Tuesday, November 20
Tuesday, November 6
mari bercuti
I've just came back from the airport sebab menghantar PK sekeluarga bercoti. After all the chaos at airport tadi - biasa la kan, keluarga tu kalau tak kelam kabut memang tak sah!...; anyway, i decided not to go to office memandangkan my mood telah dibawa bercuti bersama. haha...i malas plak nak drive ke KL, baik rehat2 dengan budak berbulu kat rumah.
Disebabkan lokasi kediaman kami yang elit ni (haha...sila jangan pindah ke kawasan kami ye, nanti jam jalan!) agak mudah untuk ke airport, maka untuk menghantar dan mengambil orang dari airport bukanlah satu pekerjaan yang rumit. It's a pleasure for me kalau kena ke airport. Positive moods are everywhere. Orang nak bercuti mesti rasa gumbira. Orang yang balik bercuti pun mood mesti tengah baik. So, menumpang rasa gembira orang adalah sangat baik untuk kesihatan kita ye. As i told PK this morning; datang ke airport ni macam ada musim. Kadang2 kerap je kena gi airport, seminggu lebih dari sekali hantar orang pun ada...kadang2 lama takde sapa nak pegi mana2. And, until end of this year i know i have a few more trips to the airport; starting with another one this weekend.
I haven't post anything about my apartment kan. I decided to do some renovation to my house, so I moved out into PK's other house. A heart-throbbing process as i need to smuggle the 17 FCs out from my house & into this highly secure building. I just hope that the cctv doesn't catch me with the carrier and such. Nowadays, my routine has changed. I woke up early, clean the house, get myself prepared and out by 6.15 after ensuring every doors and windows are locked. I'll drive to my own house to feed the FCs at my parking lot, if the time permits, i'll climb up to check on the renovation progress, and then, i'll move on to PK's place to pick her up. In the evening, we'll stop again at my house to feed the FCs before sending PK home. I'll have to make my way through the traffic to reach the house before i change my profession again to being a bibik to the FCs. The house-cleaning process is a must before i go on with my own mandi, solat and ironing routine. By the time i finish everything, i barely have any more energy to have my dinner. I can't depend on the tv programmes for entertainment, so usually i'll find myself woke up in the middle of the night still wearing my spectacle and a book on top of me. Sangat2 takde life. But, one thing i know for sure - rupanya ada drama korea kat tv2 pukul 4 pagi!
The renovation is going on well so far. I'm satisfied with the contractor - tak banyak hal, very easy to deal with, though i think i'm spending more each day. Not to blame on the contractor though; the decision is still mine kan? Anyway, the fact that the house is already more than 10 years - what do u expect? Tak kan la semua benda nak tahan lama kan. My guess is that the house will be ready for us to move back in couple of weeks, maybe earlier. Maybe i won't move in immediately. I need to sort out things sementara the FCs are not around. It's easier that way. Kalau tak ramai sangat nak tolong kemas. I hope that the place is still fresh & berkilauan by the time PK balik nanti...haha.
Kalau rajin i'll post some photos nanti, if not sapa2 nak tengok gambar (kalau ada) sila la cari saya di cubicle nanti ye. Sekian. Selamat bercuti untuk PK sekeluarga, dengan ucapan...sila pegang beg itam tu kuat2!
Disebabkan lokasi kediaman kami yang elit ni (haha...sila jangan pindah ke kawasan kami ye, nanti jam jalan!) agak mudah untuk ke airport, maka untuk menghantar dan mengambil orang dari airport bukanlah satu pekerjaan yang rumit. It's a pleasure for me kalau kena ke airport. Positive moods are everywhere. Orang nak bercuti mesti rasa gumbira. Orang yang balik bercuti pun mood mesti tengah baik. So, menumpang rasa gembira orang adalah sangat baik untuk kesihatan kita ye. As i told PK this morning; datang ke airport ni macam ada musim. Kadang2 kerap je kena gi airport, seminggu lebih dari sekali hantar orang pun ada...kadang2 lama takde sapa nak pegi mana2. And, until end of this year i know i have a few more trips to the airport; starting with another one this weekend.
I haven't post anything about my apartment kan. I decided to do some renovation to my house, so I moved out into PK's other house. A heart-throbbing process as i need to smuggle the 17 FCs out from my house & into this highly secure building. I just hope that the cctv doesn't catch me with the carrier and such. Nowadays, my routine has changed. I woke up early, clean the house, get myself prepared and out by 6.15 after ensuring every doors and windows are locked. I'll drive to my own house to feed the FCs at my parking lot, if the time permits, i'll climb up to check on the renovation progress, and then, i'll move on to PK's place to pick her up. In the evening, we'll stop again at my house to feed the FCs before sending PK home. I'll have to make my way through the traffic to reach the house before i change my profession again to being a bibik to the FCs. The house-cleaning process is a must before i go on with my own mandi, solat and ironing routine. By the time i finish everything, i barely have any more energy to have my dinner. I can't depend on the tv programmes for entertainment, so usually i'll find myself woke up in the middle of the night still wearing my spectacle and a book on top of me. Sangat2 takde life. But, one thing i know for sure - rupanya ada drama korea kat tv2 pukul 4 pagi!
The renovation is going on well so far. I'm satisfied with the contractor - tak banyak hal, very easy to deal with, though i think i'm spending more each day. Not to blame on the contractor though; the decision is still mine kan? Anyway, the fact that the house is already more than 10 years - what do u expect? Tak kan la semua benda nak tahan lama kan. My guess is that the house will be ready for us to move back in couple of weeks, maybe earlier. Maybe i won't move in immediately. I need to sort out things sementara the FCs are not around. It's easier that way. Kalau tak ramai sangat nak tolong kemas. I hope that the place is still fresh & berkilauan by the time PK balik nanti...haha.
Kalau rajin i'll post some photos nanti, if not sapa2 nak tengok gambar (kalau ada) sila la cari saya di cubicle nanti ye. Sekian. Selamat bercuti untuk PK sekeluarga, dengan ucapan...sila pegang beg itam tu kuat2!
Wednesday, September 12
the complaints
I tend to have reverse first impression about people. If my first perception is good; that person usually turns up to be someone i can't deal with...and vise versa. It happened many times and i keep myself very cautious with my own presumptions. But lately, it doesn't work that way anymore. I might adore a person the first time i set my eyes, and that feeling stays the same...and vise versa jugak!
I have been straining myself from complaining about people. Tipu la tu kan. Yes, i do complaint about almost anything that doesn't please my eyes. Orang, kerja...anything. But, i try to be fair. Give them few more chances...ye la, i might have wrong perceptions jugak kan. Kalau tak suka sangat, try to ignore, avoid eye contact, avoid lengthy conversations, avoid thinking...avoid everything la. But then again; bak kata seorang kawan...'saya hanyalah insan kamil yang mudah terkhilaf'. Though the effort is there, kadang tu it is unavoidable to have that sour feeling here and there.
I strongly believe that there's always a limit to every relationship. A student will always be a student no matter how close you are to your teacher. A wife will always be a wife to her husband. There's no way you can pass that border. Same goes with a junior - senior relationship. No matter how friendly, baik hati, helpful and whatever good deeds you can imagine a person can be; in the end, there's always that faint line that separates the connection. I believe that is what we call 'respect'. And respect will guide you in finding the right time or rather the right way to approach the other party. You can't just suka2 buat lawak bodoh tak kira masa. Kena la tengok orang tengah sibuk ke, mood baik ke tak. I trust that every human being is gifted with a sense which enable us to detect other people's mood. Though the sensitivity may differ from one another, i still believe that we, human should've been more sensitive than any other god's creatures. Even my FCs are sensitive to my emotions.
Something is bothering me in the office. To my friends who are reading this (kalau ada); you are not the person i'm describing, sila jangan terasa. I'll just list down whatever is annoying me, kalau rajin you all figure out yourselves la sapa dia.
1. Do not stare at my screen. If you can read whatever i'm googling, either you are standing too close, or you must be staring at my screen. And tak payah nak bagi ulasan on whatever i'm looking at.
2. Don't bother to keep track of whatever i'm wearing, my dress colour etc. Those doesn't have any connection with my mood. You don't have the privilege to approve or disapprove.
3. Don't give me any comment on how early or late i come to office. You don't have the right to do so. Just because sepanjang masa u ada i datang lambat doesn't mean that i tak pernah datang ofis awal. Besides, baru berapa bulan je u ada sini kan.
4. Don't ask me where i'm going. I don't need your permission to go back early or late. Ingat la, masa i dah pandai pakai lipstick, you masih lagi dalam pampers.
Haishhh...see. kalau i dah start memang banyak nak komplen. Cukup la kot kan ;p
I have been straining myself from complaining about people. Tipu la tu kan. Yes, i do complaint about almost anything that doesn't please my eyes. Orang, kerja...anything. But, i try to be fair. Give them few more chances...ye la, i might have wrong perceptions jugak kan. Kalau tak suka sangat, try to ignore, avoid eye contact, avoid lengthy conversations, avoid thinking...avoid everything la. But then again; bak kata seorang kawan...'saya hanyalah insan kamil yang mudah terkhilaf'. Though the effort is there, kadang tu it is unavoidable to have that sour feeling here and there.
I strongly believe that there's always a limit to every relationship. A student will always be a student no matter how close you are to your teacher. A wife will always be a wife to her husband. There's no way you can pass that border. Same goes with a junior - senior relationship. No matter how friendly, baik hati, helpful and whatever good deeds you can imagine a person can be; in the end, there's always that faint line that separates the connection. I believe that is what we call 'respect'. And respect will guide you in finding the right time or rather the right way to approach the other party. You can't just suka2 buat lawak bodoh tak kira masa. Kena la tengok orang tengah sibuk ke, mood baik ke tak. I trust that every human being is gifted with a sense which enable us to detect other people's mood. Though the sensitivity may differ from one another, i still believe that we, human should've been more sensitive than any other god's creatures. Even my FCs are sensitive to my emotions.
Something is bothering me in the office. To my friends who are reading this (kalau ada); you are not the person i'm describing, sila jangan terasa. I'll just list down whatever is annoying me, kalau rajin you all figure out yourselves la sapa dia.
1. Do not stare at my screen. If you can read whatever i'm googling, either you are standing too close, or you must be staring at my screen. And tak payah nak bagi ulasan on whatever i'm looking at.
2. Don't bother to keep track of whatever i'm wearing, my dress colour etc. Those doesn't have any connection with my mood. You don't have the privilege to approve or disapprove.
3. Don't give me any comment on how early or late i come to office. You don't have the right to do so. Just because sepanjang masa u ada i datang lambat doesn't mean that i tak pernah datang ofis awal. Besides, baru berapa bulan je u ada sini kan.
4. Don't ask me where i'm going. I don't need your permission to go back early or late. Ingat la, masa i dah pandai pakai lipstick, you masih lagi dalam pampers.
Haishhh...see. kalau i dah start memang banyak nak komplen. Cukup la kot kan ;p
Friday, August 17
nak balikkkk..!
it's the last working day before raya... and I worked until 4.30. pathetic gila. no, I didn't spend the time googling and such. I really sat down and did my work, even lebih tekun dari hari2 biasa...haha.
selamat hari raya!
selamat hari raya!
Tuesday, August 14
it's raya again
It's already been a month after Jignu passed away. I never failed to call his name out loud whenever i pass by his grave. Sounds stupid, but i do hope that he could hear me.
It's just a few more days before raya. I didn't make any preparation. What is there to be prepared anyway? Though i often admire my mother's spirit of celebrating raya, sometimes i do hope that she'll come to her senses and stop the routine of making so much rendang and stuffs. Why do we need so much food when we are the ones who'll be finishing them in front of the tv? It's a bless that my mother is busy babysitting AA, or else we'll have berbalang2 kuih raya in the house.
Maybe i should count my blessings. What would we end up without the raya spirit? I suppose i'll be in jeans and shirt after sembahyang raya. If i can find a pet sitter, maybe i'll be holidaying in some corner of the world. Or, kalau masa tu i tengah sengkek and can't afford to go travelling, then i'd probably just head off to office and buat2 sibuk. Sounds pathetic kan? A friend of mine said that he'll be going to malaysian embassy which is about 500km from where he is now to celebrate raya where obviously there are malays than his place. I guess when we are surrounded by unfamiliar environment, we tend to go back to our roots, we tend to miss what we usually have around us.
And that's why, just because i don't favour so much rendang and ketupat, and lagu raya, and everything that comes with it; doesn't mean that i should just ignore and not celebrate raya at all. That's why i still go with my mother's idea. She wants rendang, ok... i'll cut the meats. Ketupat, ...fine. Kena buat kek, ...ye laaa. But deep... very deep inside my heart, i do hope that one day i boleh pegi bercuti, without having to feel guilty of leaving all the FCs and all my other responsibilities behind.
It's just a few more days before raya. I didn't make any preparation. What is there to be prepared anyway? Though i often admire my mother's spirit of celebrating raya, sometimes i do hope that she'll come to her senses and stop the routine of making so much rendang and stuffs. Why do we need so much food when we are the ones who'll be finishing them in front of the tv? It's a bless that my mother is busy babysitting AA, or else we'll have berbalang2 kuih raya in the house.
Maybe i should count my blessings. What would we end up without the raya spirit? I suppose i'll be in jeans and shirt after sembahyang raya. If i can find a pet sitter, maybe i'll be holidaying in some corner of the world. Or, kalau masa tu i tengah sengkek and can't afford to go travelling, then i'd probably just head off to office and buat2 sibuk. Sounds pathetic kan? A friend of mine said that he'll be going to malaysian embassy which is about 500km from where he is now to celebrate raya where obviously there are malays than his place. I guess when we are surrounded by unfamiliar environment, we tend to go back to our roots, we tend to miss what we usually have around us.
And that's why, just because i don't favour so much rendang and ketupat, and lagu raya, and everything that comes with it; doesn't mean that i should just ignore and not celebrate raya at all. That's why i still go with my mother's idea. She wants rendang, ok... i'll cut the meats. Ketupat, ...fine. Kena buat kek, ...ye laaa. But deep... very deep inside my heart, i do hope that one day i boleh pegi bercuti, without having to feel guilty of leaving all the FCs and all my other responsibilities behind.
Sunday, July 15
it's not easy
It's not easy to let go of something dear to your heart. To look at the empty bed. To have the smell lingers even if you wash your hands. To look at the food, the unfinished pills. To imagine the face waiting to be fed
from top of the refrigerator.
It's not easy for me. And will never be.
R.I.P Jignu
It's not easy for me. And will never be.
R.I.P Jignu
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| i let him keep the collar; i hope he knows that my love will always be with him |
Thursday, May 3
i'm back
I haven't been writing for a while. So many things had happened since then. PK came back, SJ dah boleh jalan, my sister gave birth to a baby boy who was given a name similar to SJ's, someone yang i dah lama kenal is suddenly sick, a family cat is dead...i have a lot to list down.
It's all about effort. We will never have enough time. We will always have excuses. Lame excuses. I've made many, many attempts to write. I have many drafts, but none were posted...sebab, they are all half way done. Takde satu pun yang complete.
Sometimes we think that we've done enough, padahal apa yang kita buat tu cuma la seciput. Sometimes we think that we've not done enough, padahal dah terlebih2 pulak. Tetiba teringat kat pintu pagar masuk aka pondok pakgad kat luar tu. Tak cukup dengan atap macam nak lalu kastam, sekarang tambah pulak dengan signboard besar gabak macam nak masuk pusat jagaan orang2 tua. I memang hari2 panas hati je lalu situ. But i love my house. I love the view from where i'm sitting right now...which is, on my bed, facing the window where i can see lights from buildings far, far away. The windows on my left face the hill. The windows and balcony is located in a very strategic place, where i do not have to face any other resident. Sangat sesuai untuk orang2 yang anti sosial like me.
Okay, back to the topic... errr...ada topic ke pun? Anyway, just to keep myself reminded - (i know one day i can rely on my updates to keep me reminded on many things...) i came back from umrah on 22nd April, about 10 days ago. It was a trip with my parents, aunties and uncle from my mother's side, plus 2 cousins. I'm having post effect from the extremely hot weather; demam, selsema, batuk, rashes...but it's the experience that keeps me smiling to myself everyday. I've never really told anyone about the trip; not as much as i often did. Only part2 yang mengumpat2 dengan PK je la kot...haha. Not that i don't want to tell, it's just that i don't know how to explain the feeling. One may say, 'alaaa...apa la yang susah sangat nak cerita' or 'ishhh...toksah la emo sangat kot...' but the truth is; the whole trip is about handling your emotions, changing your routines, habits etc. And how can it not be emo?
It was really an emotional moment the first time i saw Kaabah. I wish the time would stop there and then. I wish i could capture that moment. You know, after all this while kita cuma pandang gambar kaabah kat sejadah, this time it's right there in front of you. Serious rasa sebak...and the emotions was carried over while performing tawaf. It was about 2am, so tak ramai orang and the circles wasn't far away from the centre. You can really feel betapa kerdilnya berdiri kat depan tu, with so many things to ask for. I nak cerita banyak2 pun tak reti jugak...kena rasa sendiri la kot.
Hehehee....i just got another moment i wish i could capture just now. I was watching Azura on my laptop (ye...azura ye...!) when my phone alarm rang. Guess what? It's 3rd May, 00:00 hrs....wahhh!!! So much blessings on me...Alhamdulillah :)
It's all about effort. We will never have enough time. We will always have excuses. Lame excuses. I've made many, many attempts to write. I have many drafts, but none were posted...sebab, they are all half way done. Takde satu pun yang complete.
Sometimes we think that we've done enough, padahal apa yang kita buat tu cuma la seciput. Sometimes we think that we've not done enough, padahal dah terlebih2 pulak. Tetiba teringat kat pintu pagar masuk aka pondok pakgad kat luar tu. Tak cukup dengan atap macam nak lalu kastam, sekarang tambah pulak dengan signboard besar gabak macam nak masuk pusat jagaan orang2 tua. I memang hari2 panas hati je lalu situ. But i love my house. I love the view from where i'm sitting right now...which is, on my bed, facing the window where i can see lights from buildings far, far away. The windows on my left face the hill. The windows and balcony is located in a very strategic place, where i do not have to face any other resident. Sangat sesuai untuk orang2 yang anti sosial like me.
Okay, back to the topic... errr...ada topic ke pun? Anyway, just to keep myself reminded - (i know one day i can rely on my updates to keep me reminded on many things...) i came back from umrah on 22nd April, about 10 days ago. It was a trip with my parents, aunties and uncle from my mother's side, plus 2 cousins. I'm having post effect from the extremely hot weather; demam, selsema, batuk, rashes...but it's the experience that keeps me smiling to myself everyday. I've never really told anyone about the trip; not as much as i often did. Only part2 yang mengumpat2 dengan PK je la kot...haha. Not that i don't want to tell, it's just that i don't know how to explain the feeling. One may say, 'alaaa...apa la yang susah sangat nak cerita' or 'ishhh...toksah la emo sangat kot...' but the truth is; the whole trip is about handling your emotions, changing your routines, habits etc. And how can it not be emo?
It was really an emotional moment the first time i saw Kaabah. I wish the time would stop there and then. I wish i could capture that moment. You know, after all this while kita cuma pandang gambar kaabah kat sejadah, this time it's right there in front of you. Serious rasa sebak...and the emotions was carried over while performing tawaf. It was about 2am, so tak ramai orang and the circles wasn't far away from the centre. You can really feel betapa kerdilnya berdiri kat depan tu, with so many things to ask for. I nak cerita banyak2 pun tak reti jugak...kena rasa sendiri la kot.
Hehehee....i just got another moment i wish i could capture just now. I was watching Azura on my laptop (ye...azura ye...!) when my phone alarm rang. Guess what? It's 3rd May, 00:00 hrs....wahhh!!! So much blessings on me...Alhamdulillah :)
Saturday, January 28
random ramblings
"lelaki kahwin lambat sbb he is perfect. perfect man is normally gay." I got that from my twitter and it made me gelakguling2. there's another status from the same person that goes something like 'lelaki kahwin lambat sbb nak perempuan yg perfect padahal diri sendiri pun xbrp lelaki'. haha...and the statement came from a man ye, bukan perempuan. ye la kan, takkan laki normal bawak bag mengalahkan handbag pompuan, mulut berceloteh tak henti, kuat merajuk. ishhh...xde kot laki normal gitu. ehhh...i ni macam tengah describe selebriti sorang tu je kan. itu yang teringat pun.
I kenal sorang lelaki yang boleh merajuk. I tau laki boleh merajuk dengan bini. ehhh... kalau bukan dengan bini mana ada lelaki nak merajuk kan. tak ke janggal nak merajuk dengan kawan sendiri, be it kawan perempuan, lagi la dengan kawan lelaki. sungguh tak macho. tu jenis yang kalau masuk rancangan money drop tu harus masam muka tak puas hati kalau jawapan salah tu. speaking of which, I tengah tengok cerita tu sambil2 tulis ni. errr...i ingat pramugari je yg dolu2 lawa, sekarang ni tak berapa lawa sangat; rupa2nya pramugara pun sama ek? tak nampak hensem pun pramugara yang masuk ni?
kenapa lelaki boleh pilih nak jadi pramugara? tak ke macam banyak kerja lain yang memerlukan sifat2 lelaki. bukan la kata kerja pramugara tu tak guna kudrat sebagai lelaki. tapi ye la, kalau setakat nak tolak troli tu, pompuan pun boleh tolak. mungkin fungsi pramugara ni more to please the eyes of penumpang2 pompuan gedik. ntah la, I don't seem to see the importance of having a steward & tak pernah pulak I rasa looking forward to look at them bila naik katerbang.
I asked a friend if he has started packing since he'll be off to work overseas for 2 years. I imagine kalau I la, sure dah bagai nak rak I mengemas tu sebab takut tertinggal macam2. silap2 nak pakai baju pun main tarik dari dalam beg je sekarang. but this friend of mine kata packing is easy; yang dia risau cuma kerja dia sangat banyak & takut tak sempat siap. and his trip is about in two weeks time. isshhh...heran sungguh orang kata packing tu senang. I overheard almost the same comment from a colleague. so, I assume that kebanyakan lelaki memang sempoi, tak payah pack barang banyak2 & tak payah kelam kabut. I tengok my father & adik laki pun senang je pack barang kalau nak ke mana2. beg plastik pun jadi je. so, I came to another conclusion that, lelaki sejati memang simple, tak payah nak kepoh2 kemas gadget2 bagai. yang kemas barang bersungguh2 macam nak bawak satu bilik adalah pompuan or laki yang tak berapa sejati.
teringat pulak lagu sejati wings tu. sakit sungguh mata & telinga ni bila tengok iklan konsert awi & ela kat tv tu. awi ketul2 tu ok la, makcik ela tu kenapa makin 'manja' lak I tengok? manja tu tak sesuai dah dengan dia tu...gedik sesuai. meroyan apa, umur dah lebih patpuluh nak manja2 lagi. ni mesti ada kaitan with the fact that dia tak kahwin ni.
I rasa la kan, orang yang dah berumur tapi tak kahwin ni mesti ada benda yang pelik pasal dia. not necessarily pelik in a bad sense; mungkin jugak pelik yang harmless untuk dia & orang2 keliling dia. kalau there's nothing wrong with their head, tak kan dia tak berfikir macam orang2 normal lain kan; for whatever the reason may be. ye la, I bercakap ni macam la I tak termasuk dalam golongan orang pelik ni kan. I pun pelik la sekali kot, cuma I sendiri tak tau tang mana yang tak kena dengan kepala ni. lantak la, I tak menyusahkan orang pun.
speaking of menyusahkan ni, I terpaksa la menyusahkan adik lelaki I esok. I bought a new remote for my astero. yang lama tu tak leh nak tekan butang info dah...kerap sangat tekan kot sampai dia dah malas kerja. tak reti le pulak I nak configure benda tu. dah puas tekan sana sini ikut arahan pun tak jadi jugak. tu la kelemahan otak I ni. tak pandai betul bab2 ni. I pernah beli kipas berdiri tu, puas I godek nak pasang kan kaki dia tak jadi jugak. I siap syak kedai tu jual kipas reject lagi. few times jugak I pergi tengok kat section electric kat pasaraya macamana la diorang pasang kaki tu. balik try tak jadi jugak. I brought the fan to my brother & he took less than a minute to get it done. cehhh. pernah jugak dulu PK bought a table yang ada kaki boleh lipat. we don't know how to get the kaki to stand straight. we almost get rid of the table. and my brother took less than 2 minutes to figure out the thing. ye..otak lelaki memang dijadikan lebih cekap dalam hal2 gitu. and it's a gift kalau ada orang yang cekap dalam hal2 lelaki, and at the same time jugak ada hati yang sensitip macam perempuan... which, make them someone yang pelik; or in a worst case...a gay! hahaha...
I kenal sorang lelaki yang boleh merajuk. I tau laki boleh merajuk dengan bini. ehhh... kalau bukan dengan bini mana ada lelaki nak merajuk kan. tak ke janggal nak merajuk dengan kawan sendiri, be it kawan perempuan, lagi la dengan kawan lelaki. sungguh tak macho. tu jenis yang kalau masuk rancangan money drop tu harus masam muka tak puas hati kalau jawapan salah tu. speaking of which, I tengah tengok cerita tu sambil2 tulis ni. errr...i ingat pramugari je yg dolu2 lawa, sekarang ni tak berapa lawa sangat; rupa2nya pramugara pun sama ek? tak nampak hensem pun pramugara yang masuk ni?
kenapa lelaki boleh pilih nak jadi pramugara? tak ke macam banyak kerja lain yang memerlukan sifat2 lelaki. bukan la kata kerja pramugara tu tak guna kudrat sebagai lelaki. tapi ye la, kalau setakat nak tolak troli tu, pompuan pun boleh tolak. mungkin fungsi pramugara ni more to please the eyes of penumpang2 pompuan gedik. ntah la, I don't seem to see the importance of having a steward & tak pernah pulak I rasa looking forward to look at them bila naik katerbang.
I asked a friend if he has started packing since he'll be off to work overseas for 2 years. I imagine kalau I la, sure dah bagai nak rak I mengemas tu sebab takut tertinggal macam2. silap2 nak pakai baju pun main tarik dari dalam beg je sekarang. but this friend of mine kata packing is easy; yang dia risau cuma kerja dia sangat banyak & takut tak sempat siap. and his trip is about in two weeks time. isshhh...heran sungguh orang kata packing tu senang. I overheard almost the same comment from a colleague. so, I assume that kebanyakan lelaki memang sempoi, tak payah pack barang banyak2 & tak payah kelam kabut. I tengok my father & adik laki pun senang je pack barang kalau nak ke mana2. beg plastik pun jadi je. so, I came to another conclusion that, lelaki sejati memang simple, tak payah nak kepoh2 kemas gadget2 bagai. yang kemas barang bersungguh2 macam nak bawak satu bilik adalah pompuan or laki yang tak berapa sejati.
teringat pulak lagu sejati wings tu. sakit sungguh mata & telinga ni bila tengok iklan konsert awi & ela kat tv tu. awi ketul2 tu ok la, makcik ela tu kenapa makin 'manja' lak I tengok? manja tu tak sesuai dah dengan dia tu...gedik sesuai. meroyan apa, umur dah lebih patpuluh nak manja2 lagi. ni mesti ada kaitan with the fact that dia tak kahwin ni.
I rasa la kan, orang yang dah berumur tapi tak kahwin ni mesti ada benda yang pelik pasal dia. not necessarily pelik in a bad sense; mungkin jugak pelik yang harmless untuk dia & orang2 keliling dia. kalau there's nothing wrong with their head, tak kan dia tak berfikir macam orang2 normal lain kan; for whatever the reason may be. ye la, I bercakap ni macam la I tak termasuk dalam golongan orang pelik ni kan. I pun pelik la sekali kot, cuma I sendiri tak tau tang mana yang tak kena dengan kepala ni. lantak la, I tak menyusahkan orang pun.
speaking of menyusahkan ni, I terpaksa la menyusahkan adik lelaki I esok. I bought a new remote for my astero. yang lama tu tak leh nak tekan butang info dah...kerap sangat tekan kot sampai dia dah malas kerja. tak reti le pulak I nak configure benda tu. dah puas tekan sana sini ikut arahan pun tak jadi jugak. tu la kelemahan otak I ni. tak pandai betul bab2 ni. I pernah beli kipas berdiri tu, puas I godek nak pasang kan kaki dia tak jadi jugak. I siap syak kedai tu jual kipas reject lagi. few times jugak I pergi tengok kat section electric kat pasaraya macamana la diorang pasang kaki tu. balik try tak jadi jugak. I brought the fan to my brother & he took less than a minute to get it done. cehhh. pernah jugak dulu PK bought a table yang ada kaki boleh lipat. we don't know how to get the kaki to stand straight. we almost get rid of the table. and my brother took less than 2 minutes to figure out the thing. ye..otak lelaki memang dijadikan lebih cekap dalam hal2 gitu. and it's a gift kalau ada orang yang cekap dalam hal2 lelaki, and at the same time jugak ada hati yang sensitip macam perempuan... which, make them someone yang pelik; or in a worst case...a gay! hahaha...
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Friday, January 6
orange is the colour...!
♥ ♥ gue jatuh cinta banget sama warna orange ♥ ♥
terlupa plak nak ucap... Happy New Year 2012!
blame it on the weather
Ada masanya, kita rasa kita buat apa yang betul. At least we think that's the right thing to do at that particular moment. Then, after a while or sometimes days..or months after baru kita sedar yang 'owhhh damn it!...i shouldn't have done that..!! ...and it's too late by then. I sometimes experience that kind of thing. Kadang terlepas cakap. Maklum la..mulut laju je kan. Kadang terlepas perbuatan. Tangan pun kadang tu susah nak control jugak. We do things uncontrollably. Tak ter'control' oleh akal and hati kita but controlled by kepala kita yang most of the time dikawal pulak oleh syaitan.
I'm not the type yang akan rasa menyesal. Ada la kekadang tu rasa macam sikit2 menyesal like 'kenapa la aku beli beg bodoh ni...patut beli la coach ke apa...' cewahhh...contohhh! something like that. But i've never really regretted over something so badly. No matter how huge the mess i've made. I tak menyesal pun spent 8 years at the old company who treated me as if without diorang bagi gaji i boleh mati kebuluran. Without the experience, i mungkin jadi orang yang tak reti hidup susah sekarang ni. I've never regretted any decision i've made, mainly because i truly believe that whatever happened is all fated to me. They are all qada' and qadar. I choose to go with the flow.
I sometimes wonder if i am being too nice to certain people; but at the same time i treat others badly. ok..i tak la teruk sangat kot. Takde la sampai jeling orang sampai nak juling or pukul orang tak tentu pasal; but i admit that i am being unfair or buat2 tak layan to certain people. I do have that guilt; especially when that person cuba jugak nak berbaik2 macam tolong bagi sudu whatever...hahaha. Siapa la tu kan? I have that tendency or capability to ignore people. I hate it but kekadang benda tu memang tak boleh control...alasan kan. Adakah i seumpama kacang lupakan kulit? Yesterday i called a friend, whom i've been ignoring sekarang ni sebab i simply feel bored of that person (boleh??). I memang teruk kan. I called sebab i felt guilty, itu je...not because i suddenly dah dapat cahaya kesedaran and rasa berdosa whatsoever. Did i feel better after that call? Nope. Well, just a little bit, rasa la kurang bersalah sikit. But, it didn't change a bit of my sifat kacang lupakan kulit tu. I masih ada rasa tak puashati or dalam bahasa yang betul2nya; mengutuk dalam hati. Maybe i should think of all the nice things, how things were good before, how nice i've been treated all this while and bla..bla. Did i change? or did the other party change? or actually, neither of us did? i choose to wait and see.
Maybe at that particular time, everything seems just right for us. Tetiba sekarang; dengan perubahan cuaca kekadang panas, kekadang hujan; belum masuk bab banjir kat mana2; ombak pulak tinggi...maybe, maybe it changes the mood. My mood sebenarnya. I don't blame orang lain. It's me, i know. Shall i 'unfriend' this person? No. Definitely not by me. I ni dah la tak ramai kawan. I've decided to stay or shall i rephrase.. at this moment i shall pretend; to be the same person i've been before as much and as long as i could. Time will decide how things will be in the future. i hope for the best; whatever it may be.
I'm not the type yang akan rasa menyesal. Ada la kekadang tu rasa macam sikit2 menyesal like 'kenapa la aku beli beg bodoh ni...patut beli la coach ke apa...' cewahhh...contohhh! something like that. But i've never really regretted over something so badly. No matter how huge the mess i've made. I tak menyesal pun spent 8 years at the old company who treated me as if without diorang bagi gaji i boleh mati kebuluran. Without the experience, i mungkin jadi orang yang tak reti hidup susah sekarang ni. I've never regretted any decision i've made, mainly because i truly believe that whatever happened is all fated to me. They are all qada' and qadar. I choose to go with the flow.
I sometimes wonder if i am being too nice to certain people; but at the same time i treat others badly. ok..i tak la teruk sangat kot. Takde la sampai jeling orang sampai nak juling or pukul orang tak tentu pasal; but i admit that i am being unfair or buat2 tak layan to certain people. I do have that guilt; especially when that person cuba jugak nak berbaik2 macam tolong bagi sudu whatever...hahaha. Siapa la tu kan? I have that tendency or capability to ignore people. I hate it but kekadang benda tu memang tak boleh control...alasan kan. Adakah i seumpama kacang lupakan kulit? Yesterday i called a friend, whom i've been ignoring sekarang ni sebab i simply feel bored of that person (boleh??). I memang teruk kan. I called sebab i felt guilty, itu je...not because i suddenly dah dapat cahaya kesedaran and rasa berdosa whatsoever. Did i feel better after that call? Nope. Well, just a little bit, rasa la kurang bersalah sikit. But, it didn't change a bit of my sifat kacang lupakan kulit tu. I masih ada rasa tak puashati or dalam bahasa yang betul2nya; mengutuk dalam hati. Maybe i should think of all the nice things, how things were good before, how nice i've been treated all this while and bla..bla. Did i change? or did the other party change? or actually, neither of us did? i choose to wait and see.
Maybe at that particular time, everything seems just right for us. Tetiba sekarang; dengan perubahan cuaca kekadang panas, kekadang hujan; belum masuk bab banjir kat mana2; ombak pulak tinggi...maybe, maybe it changes the mood. My mood sebenarnya. I don't blame orang lain. It's me, i know. Shall i 'unfriend' this person? No. Definitely not by me. I ni dah la tak ramai kawan. I've decided to stay or shall i rephrase.. at this moment i shall pretend; to be the same person i've been before as much and as long as i could. Time will decide how things will be in the future. i hope for the best; whatever it may be.
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