f r i e n d s

 I saw my friend's requests and suggestions at my pesbuk today.  Ada la dalam 20 orang semua.  I have no idea what to do.  Some are from my school days, some from uni days, ada jugak yang nak berkawan sebab dia awek my brother (adakah nak mengambil hati kakak ipar...ohh!), ada yang suggest anak sendiri and ada jugak yang i memang tak tau dia tu siapa.  Those from my old-days tu was mostly suggested by friends.  I can hardly count berapa kali je kitaorang berkata-kata masa zaman sekolah dulu and i wonder if there's anything to say or talk about in pesbuk.  I know some are proud by number of friends but i think, apa la gunanya memenuhkan wall sendiri dengan benda2 yang kita tak bother nak tau pun.  Some might think that i ni sombong & memilih kawan.  Apatah lagi sekarang ni kekawan sekolah ntah macam dirasuk apa, asyik2 ada gathering, kejap2 potluck, kejap2 jumpa, sat lagi ajak bday party anak, tak lama lagi berjumpa-jumpaan dekat dengan sekolah & ada visit to maktab lak tu.  I am interested to go back to maktab, saje nak tengok macamana rupa dia sekarang, i reckon the building must be old, asrama dah tak cantik lagi, tempat dating2 dulu dah nampak macam tak best...but, to spend the night bersama kawan2 yang i dah tak berapa kawan...macam tak best je.  Tak cukup dengan invitation kat pesbuk, i dapat sms lagi, bukan satu, tapi dua orang yang hantar...ohhhh.  I ni betul2 anti-sosial kan.


In my opinion, being friends di alam internet ni doesn't give us the opportunity to show our ability to be real friends.  I know that i'm willing to be around if i'm needed, to lend a hand, to share my ears and shoulder, to give opinion when needed...and it can happen when u are face to face with that person.  Of course you can always email, sms ke apa tapi only on certain occasion that i think we can be good friends dengan orang yang kita tak jumpa, contohnya macam kita dah memang kenal lama & rapat dengan orang tu.  Kalau setakat dah 20 tahun tak berjumpa, nak kawan2 di alam cyber ni i don't think it'll work.  Not for me at least.  I know i have friend that'll only look for me bila ada hal, meaning hal2 dia la kan; and it is only of his/her interests.  There are times that made me feel annoyed, but then again...it is all about being sincere kan.  We try our best to be there for them but since we can't rely on them, so we can always turn to other friends for attention.


People may become friends simply because they are in common current situation, share same interest, common background etc...but it takes more than just a 'hi' or 'hello' to become very good or close friends.  Doesn't have to be someone of the same gender, ethnic group or religion.  A true friend should be someone who can support, sympathize, built your self esteem and to be able to encourage you in every aspects. It is all about share and care, being honest and understanding.

I believe that having good friends doesn't only apply to humans; i know my Cipoi has her own best buddy, Tam-Tam.  Kawan yang baik is different from kawan baik.  Kawan yang baik can be a really nice and good person, but he/she might not have what it takes to be a good friend.  Kawan baik is someone that you know will always be there for you; someone who you can call at any time of the day if needed, be it at two in the morning pun, kalau rasa nak call, you know you'll be entertained.  I know how does it feels to contemplate and hesitate just to make a call; worried that my call would cause stress, depression and mood commotion, thus affecting me after that but, we can't expect everyone to suit themselves to our needs kan.


I'm grateful for being blessed with such wonderful friends, and to have a great best friend, whom i can always count to cheer me up, make me laugh and always make me feel better about myself ~ ~ ~